Have you ever had those moments where you say something in an effort to encourage a friend, and then all of a sudden you realize that you need that reminder as well? It's this weird feeling of, "Gosh, did I actually say something that made sense?" and "Wow, maybe I should take my own advice."
That happened to me recently. And it's crazy how those words have rung true for me in so many ways. I hate tooting my own horn (such a weird phrase) and trust me, I'm not doing that here. I'm just saying how ironic it is when sometimes the words you need to hear most, come from yourself. So so strange.
2012 was an amazing year. One filled with tears, laughter, joy and sorrow, heartache and happiness. I was stretched and changed and broken and restored. You all saw me go to Guatemala. I shot a proposal. I turned 18. And all the while, I learned something. Trust is a difficult thing.
You see, trust was my "one word" for 2012. And I had faith that God was going to run with it, and that He did. I learned to lean on Him more than I ever have before. And it was amazing. And exhausting. And so so good for my soul.
So I thought long and hard about my word for 2013. I prayed about it and went through so many words. I mean COME ON THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE IS EXTENSIVE. I almost chose "cute" for the new year's word. #kidding.
Free: enjoying personal rights or liberty, as a person who is not in slavery.
I'm definitely not done learning about trust. I have so much more to learn about my God and about trusting him completely and fully. But I get excited when I think about living in freedom.
Freedom is ignoring fear of man and living the life that you have been created to live. It's loving others without fear and loving God with everything you are. Freedom is knowing that God has a brilliant plan for your life and "every little thing is gonna be alright." It's being your beautiful self with all of your wonderful gifts and talents and quirks and personality. It's being there for others and giving of yourself in love. It's enjoying life and all of it's beautiful-ness and being free to cry when things get sad. Freedom for me is being free to lose because I have won everything in Christ.
Being free is letting go of somethings that have been clinging closely to you and dragging you down from what you could accomplish. And that's important. I can't hold on too tightly to what is in the past because it keeps me from the future.
And that's my 2013. And I'm pretty excited about it.
Happy New Year everyone.
ps. I am doing so much traveling this next month and I am excited to share it all with you. Much love.